Does Big Mind Go "Zap"?

 

Dear Genpo,

 

Does Big Mind go “zap”?

Does Big Mind pick up his teacher’s Zen stick and threaten to hit him with it?

Does Big Mind threaten drop a stone Buddha on his student’s foot?

Oh, I think so.

But what about Big Mind the process?  That seems rather benign.

Where’s the fun in that?  Where is the transmission?

 

I know Big Mind goes “zap” because Big Mind is electrocuting me.

Big Mind stops electrocuting me when I express it; when it is transmitted through me.

Big Mind shouts and all is Negated.

Big Mind exists in me as a hurricane. 

As Big Mind, I have no interest in Big Mind the process.

And I am never not Big Mind.

 

But I am not limited to Big Mind.

I know what it means for Big Mind to come home.

I know what it means for Big Mind to die.

I know that freedom “as” is far superior to freedom “from.”

 

But right now, I exist as a firework rocketing towards dharmakaya.

I scream to the pinnacle of understanding and explode as Realization.

Undone and dispersed, I fall as mist upon the 10,000 things.

Only moisture remains, with no one left to behold this majesty.

 

I will not be distracted from my trajectory.

Until I explode, I will hold a sword to the throat of any process.

My teacher, what am I supposed to do with your teaching? 

I hate it.

 

Love,

Colin

Comments

[Mark Binet]

Beautiful.

"But right now, I exist as a firework rocketing towards dharmakaya."

and...

"But right now, I exist as dharmakaya rocketing towards a firework."

In my mind, the second fits you better!

[Brandy]

I know that freedom “as” is far superior to freedom “from.”

As Big Mind, I have no interest in Big Mind the process... Until I explode, I will hold a sword to the throat of any process.

Well spoken, Unspoken. ;)

[Hokai]

"My teacher, what am I supposed to do with your teaching?" Is this a rhetorical question? Process is just a rearview mirror. Indeed, as bigmind you do not hate "it", because it has no meaning separate from what you already are. Seems a true paradox, but I strongly feel it's a contradiction, bound to be solved as freedom from thought, or as you'd say freedom AS bigmind. Bigmind has no preferences, and yes - it does go zap! Thank you, Mr. BigArrow.